You know when you're a kid and all you can think about are all the possibilities that lie ahead of you when you grow up? They never tell you it's not that easy. There isn't a life planned out for you once you reach a certain age. There are many different paths you can take, the only problem is; how do you make sure you chose the right one?
I have come to a point in my life where I question most everything I do. I think long-term instead of in-the-moment, I like to think I use better judgment these days, and I think about mistakes I have made in the past in an effort to make a better future. But no one told me that life would be such a struggle at times.
I am very grateful for the life I live today, and I am fully aware of others who face far harder decisions than I will ever have to. Is it selfish to be concerned with such trivial things? Or is it commonplace for everyone my age? Over the past four years I have gone through many life changing experiences; some were bad, some were awful, and some were glorious. It is still hard to believe that four years of college have come and gone, and now I am faced with yet another challenge: What now?
I have never been good with change. Change is an utterly scary process. The world of the unknown is a scary place to be when you're still just a little girl deep down. After coming to another divergence in the path of life I did what any other logical college graduate would decide to do; I decided to stay in school. And now, yet again, I find myself questioning whether or not this was the right path.
In the long run, I know staying in school was the right decision for me. But right now, I find myself in some sort of Limbo; the "In Between" where no one seems to fit in or know where they are going. I find myself wandering around aimlessly in this new territory unsure as to which move to make next. Only time will tell...
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